SHALLY A.

am trying hard to imprint in my head with a permanent marker   the words responsibility, change, pain, love, diligence its tough I am not the child that her feet plays pitty-patty in the rain my face is lined with mature bones body curved with precision  and fearful perfection eyes deeper and more mysterious my smile has lost its careless abandon dreams far far away Alice in wonderland growing up is tough it’s just less delightful than childhood less protected and less free I want to be a child again   I wrote this poem in 2010... I still have those moments where all I want is to be a little girl again. ;)

LOVE: Love lasting overflowing vulnerable and enduring. Love huh! It seems time stops when we finally find you. We are not rushing to the unfathomable future; not caring about the silly whinny past. I walk down the street with a new beam. Sunshine clouding my eyes. My smiles shyness is gone, am wide mouthed in love.   HAPPINESS: There are times that I feel like the world is changing me around and that my soul has so little to dance about. I have so many words in my heart and my voice fails to speak out loud. In the stillness of my heart, am praying to find a reason, a will to be madly happy. I just don’t know how to let myself know that everything is for a time, am keep waiting for us to find each other. Huh! Happiness it seems like you are lost and found and I really need this sunlight smile of mine. THE BOOK: My life is like a book. I had no right to choose the cover. It was fearfully designed from up above. It’s an irony though that the pages are blank. I am allowed